Yay, lamp is fixed! Thank you!

Now, tonight I’ve been eating fast food, not good at all since my stomach doesn’t approve, but it was worth it. I just didn’t bother to make any decent food.
I’ve been working today, actually got a lot done. And I had to drive to Timrå this morning, woaha. I’m good! No accidents! No deaths! Success!

It wasn’t as warm today as it was yesterday, but it was okay. At least I got to see the sun, sunshine makes me happy. Snow always makes me sad for some reason, I can’t explain that but for the last couple of years the first snow has always made me sad. It’s like it reminds me of something I’m missing, I just can’t seem to remember what it is.

Anywaaaay, time to sleep, it’s late and I have to get up early to make breakfast, and then I’m off driving!
Nighty!

I just put up two small lamps next to my mirror, looks great! Sucks that one of them broke when I put a bulb in it, don’t know why but a tiny piece of metal fell out of it and the lamp doesn’t work. It’s not a big deal to fix but I don’t have the things here.
I also believe that Patrik accidentally took my screwdriver with him when he left, so I couldn’t fix it even if I had the things for the lamp that I need :P
Anyway, I’ve been working today, gonna go work more in about..an hour or so. I have to eat first, I’m starving!

I’ve got two great announcements..
First..IT’S WARM! The snow is melting away! That’s so awesome that I can’t even find words to express it, I’m so sick of snow and cold and not wanting to go outside because the weather sucks, that I hope that this is the last we see of this winter.
Secondly, I’ve found my glasses! You might ask “What’s so great about that?” since it’s about 8 years since I last wore glasses. They’re a bit (hah) too small, but at least I can see with them and therefore I can legally drive a car. That means I can continue my driving lessons and get my drivers license! Awesome!

Everything is awesome today, lol. My back doesn’t even hurt anymore!
Okay, food and then work.
Ciao!

Ugh. This morning when I turned my TV on, the first thing that I saw on MTV was Agnes. Ugh. I guess a lot of you have heard of her, she’s a Swedish Idol-winner from a couple of years ago who became famous for no reason at all. Her music is generally okay, but I don’t like her voice.
Anyway, when I saw her face it reminded me of this one time in Chicago, I was in some kind of shopping center and suddenly I hear the song Release me, I just felt that “Shit, I can’t escape her!!!?!”. So funny feeling, going 5000 miles from home and still have to listen to swedish music :P

My back hurts today, it’s pretty bad, and I had to sit at work today so it didn’t really get better. On the other hand, it didn’t really get worse either so I’m good!
Btw, if someone has a suitcase (a pretty big one) that you want to sell, contact me! Air Canada broke mine so I have to get a new one, or no, I don’t have to because I have one that looks kind of like a sports bag with wheels, but if I buy something that I don’t want to break (something that is not clothes, that is), I can’t put it in my suitcase because it’s soft. Therefore I want to find a better one!

I didn’t get the curtains done yesterday so no pictures of my home yet, hopefully next weekend :P It’s not like I can’t to it myself but I really suck so that’s why I want my mum to do it, and since she’s working 5 days a week she doesn’t have that much time. So you’ll have to wait!

Now I’m off to bed, work tomorrow morning!
Ciao!

I’ve found it!
It’s not gone!

Or rather.. my mum told me where to look, and she was right (after searching through my apartment).
I’ve found the key to my heart!

Dead tired. Time to sleep.
Nighty

So, I’m unpacking some stuff again, I’m actually looking for an old diary, and my key. Didn’t find any of them, but something else instead.
My old letters. Those are letters and cards that are at least 5 years old. Made me somewhat nostalgic. I found letters from my dad that he sent me when he’d just recently moved away from us (1995-1996), I found birthday cards from when I turned 5, 12, 13, 17… I found cards from my graduation. I found the card I got from Adina explaining her birthday presents when I turned 18, and I realized that I listened to her. The photo album I got is indeed filled with pictures of people that I back then counted as my second family.
And I found all the card I’ve got from Emma during the years, from her vacations. Two of the cards from her are from USA, and I remember being so impressed that she’d been there. I’ve got a couple of cards and letters from Vilhelmina. I’ve got a Christmas letter that I got one year, and I remember how she forbid me to open it before Christmas (the letter actually contains a part that says “In case you opened this too early: “BAD SABINE!”")

And I found all the letters from my two best friends from Södertälje, that they sent me the during my first months here.
And I found cards from a person that I haven’t heard from since I was 15, because the person just didn’t want me anymore.

I am amazingly old, lol! So much has happened the last couple of years, they’ve passed by fast but at the same time I’ve been through so much that I sometimes think I’ve always lived here, and had this life with this job. I almost can’t remember the time before that.

Well, I should finish unpacking this, and then start working. Need to work a lot this month!
Ciao!

I’ve lost my key.
You know, that small key I always carry with a thin chain around my neck. The one with tiny crystals.
I can’t find it. I’ve known for some time that it’s gone, I was hoping to find it while unpacking my things, that I’d packed it by accident. But I can’t find it!
It took me years to find the perfect key, it’s the first time EVER that I’ve got myself something like that. The symbolism was obvious to most people, and it was perfect. I always carried the key to my heart.
As far as I know I’ve had it after I got back from Chicago which LUCKILY means that I didn’t forget it there, but that also means that I lost it here in Härnösand. I’ll try to go to the other apartment tonight to look for it because seriously. I need it. That key has followed me everywhere, and it will do again.

I’ll soon start making lunch, Lars is coming here and he’ll be hungry. But first, iron some more clothes!
Ciao!

Did you know that there’s a bird named “Sabine’s Gull”? I didn’t! Proof here

Today I’ve worked, cooked food, worked some more, eaten dinner…and now I’m off to bed.
Actually, I’m impressed by myself. I’ve eaten three times today! Breakfast, lunch and dinner! I can’t remember the last time I did that, and I didn’t even have to force myself to eat. Weeee.

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you about the gull. Lol. Nighty!

Oh btw, I don’t know if I’ve said this but apparently I didn’t get the job. BUT, I might have found someone who can give me information about how to move to London. +-
Ciao!

It’s sunday, for another 54 minutes. Today I’ve actually been outside, I took a walk to my mum’s place, and then we walked to the cemetary together. It was nice, I like going there, and I really enjoy having someone to talk to that is…I dunno…female? Not that I don’t enjoy talking to guys but sometimes it’s good to have a woman to talk to, even if it’s your mum.

The rest of the day I spent working. I’m seriously coming back now, the last couple of hours didn’t at all feel as horrible as the last week did. Guess I’m getting used to my job again, which is great. That means I can work my ass off in march, and get a shitload of money in april, and then spend it all when I’m going to London :D
Okay, I know it’s annoying that I keep mentioning London in every other sentence but I don’t care, I’m so happy to go back there. I really need something to look forward to and this is perfect, so thank you.
And yeah, I’ll send you post cards. I’m sorry it’s not from Chicago, London will have to do. But that’s okay, americans don’t seem to take care of stuff very well (my suitcase was a complete wreck when I got it back at Arlanda), I’m guessing that the British are better. *slaps herself*
Ofc British ppl are better, haha, we already knew that <3

Okay, I really need to eat something, haven’t had any dinner, maybe I’ll put the dark cover on my sofa, and then I’m off to bed. I’m working early tomorrow.
Ciao!

Okay, as I’ve told you before I’m going to London in May, I am not entirely sure about how I’m supposed to save enough money for the trip, but I’ll figure it out. Working my ass off seems like a good start. So I’m guessing March will be all about…WORKWORKWORK. Good, it’ll keep me occupied. And no shopping here. no clothes, no nothing. No stuff for my home. No unnecessary food. I want to spend a LOT of money in London, knowing that I’ll go to Primark, lol. And Waterstone’s! I like their webshop but NOTHING is as good as the real deal. So, give me ideas. What books do I need to read? I’m making a list for books to check out and maybe buy when I get there.

* The Timetraveler’s Wife (I left my copy in Chicago and I assume that the guy I left it with won’t spend money on sending it back to me, he probably threw it away a long time ago)
* Books written by Jodi Picoult, I really like her books, they are touching and they make you think and..mmm.
* I need the english pocket version of the first two Harry Potter books, because I (shame on me) have got only 12 books where there should be 14 (7 in swedish and 7 in english).

And that’s about what I’ve figured out so far :P I’d like to add that after this trip I will officially not have any space left in my book shelf, so someone needs to get me one ;)

I seriously can’t wait to get there, I love London so much. A colleague and friend of mine says that I should seriously try to move there, and I’m starting to agree with her. I’ve never stopped because shit is difficult before, why start now? Doesn’t seem as impossible as moving to USA och Australia and THAT’S a good thing!

Where in the world would you want to live?

Today it’s a month since I ruined my life. And it’s only two days left of what would have been my longest vacation ever. Instead it became the longest month in my life, it seriously feels like 6 months have passed, not only one.
I can’t say that I feel alive again, because I don’t. But at least I feel like I can act like it, pretend like things are okay and just go on with everything, which in time will make my life somewhat easier.

I just noticed it’s snowing. A LOT. I just got what “rage” meant about getting out in the snow, lol. And I have to go to a post office to pick up some stuff, eek. But, as someone said yesterday, we’ve been complaining about not having enough snow for the last 20 years, now we got it, and we’re still complaining.

Nah, I’m off. Got some things I have to get done and at 12 I have to start working.
Btw I’ll probably take the time to take som pictures of my apartment later today. I just need to find my camera :P
Ciao!